OH NOES!

I took two days off just to think really hard into this. It was a struggle. It was a struggle to decide. Initially I had everything planned out. Perfect. It felt so easy that I forgot everything. Like, yes! I'm gonna do this, this and that. Then bam! Everything is void. Void.…

Luckily for me, I have people who made things so easy for me at this point of time. Blessed. So what more can I ask for? :) Thank you... You all know who you are. :D

CK = BRAT?

DISCLAIMER: NOT TRYING TO BE A BRAT HERE BUT...

Oh yes, one week of ordeal is over and here comes another week. I was going to complain here (like a spoilt brat), but this stream of negative feelings just reminded me of my "important" list of things to do in 2010 which is, be positive! So now I'm going to think only nice thing of my lovely job (no pun intended).

I'm doing this following the law of attraction. You know I love Science and stuff so these laws came naturally interesting to me although this doesn't have anything to do with Science (even though there is newton's three laws of motion). Hence, only when I think something nice about it, nice thing will come naturally.. Hahaha!

After 6 days of work, I get tired of almost everything that got to do with clothes. Especially women's clothes cause it's equal to hell. I don't get it. Why? And why must The Tongue be used for evil? OK no, actually these are really nice things...

Now I'm tired. Sick of gossips, sick of clothes, sick of sarcasm. What comes next? I don't know. Maybe at the end of the day I'm still a brat that haven't truely seen the working world, but I do hope that these people do know that without these things, the world would be a better place. (I hope I don't eat back my words in a few years time. Opps) But one thing I do enjoy now is the company of friends and making new friends.

Yay, results tomorrow.. *positive thinkings attracts As* *om mali om mali hoi!*

2010

Yay I'm reopening my blog in twenty ten! Are you excited? Its because another life is beginning this year - I'm graduating! So for all of you secondary school peeps out there, maybe next year? I don't know... (evil grin) So this blog won't be a "today, I did this... " kind of blog. I will update whenever I feel like it. Ha!

Jokes aside, its also because I brought a new camera which I spent all my money on. With that additional photo taking device, it literally bankrupted me! Hence I only have a hundred in my bank now (I used to be secretive about it ok!). I will be uploading photos here. Like photojournalism...

I actually tried to get another blog hosting website yesterday but fail. I also tried to upload my pictures online but the files are too large to be uploaded. Fail..

Looking back at 2009, it was year accompanied with struggles; be it studies, relationships, families and myself. I am thinking a lot in 2009. I thought about my future which I hadn't been serious about for fifteen years and I'm scared of the future. I wouldn't even want to think about it. I thought about something non-existence, something very optimistic and pessimistic. I fell sick and admitted into hospital for the first time in 2009 because of a fake case of appendicitis. I also tried very hard to balance between friends and studies but I chose studies more in the end. Luckily we all did the same thing. Hence, I feel that 2009 was a year that decides my fate, 2010 will be a start of another experience, another life for me.

What do I wish to accomplish in 2010? People like to write new year resolutions to achieve their targets for the year but it was often forgotten after a few months. So I don't make new year resolutions.

Phew...

The day I have longed finally came. How great was that?

I remembered September was a struggle, October was intense and November was relaxing.

I remembered this because in my diary I wrote, "I have struggled long and hard, a rather arduous journey this September. But I know October is going to be worse, much terrible. Hang in there!"

I fell sick in October and I was upset with myself for not being able to revise. Teachers told me my curve is decreasing.

At the end of October was rather relaxing. I felt so good after the English paper and better after the Humanities paper. It was as though everything was over.

And now, it's finally over! This means that it's time to clear the mountains of papers in my room and have fun!

Good things > bad things

What goes down, eventually comes up. I don't know why, but I think life have given me more things than I can give.

I felt so blessed. Times like this made me realize how much love there is in humanity. :)

船到桥头自然直。

Yes positive please.

Recently I have been feeling the feel of getting hit by a truck. I will get cynical unconsciously and felt like and emo. Whenever I see people ranting about how their life sucks, I get annoyed. Its like my pet peeve but today, I'm like interconnected with these people.

I felt a sense of reluctance and repugnance when I'm in the hall today because I found out that all the "honourable" stuff I was proud of was actually doesn't even belong to me. I don't even feel like doing it anymore. Where's the motivation? Where's the confidence?

The perfectionist in me died, but whatever, I have thought about it and I don't care. It will be October soon and I'm not going to let anyone ruin it for me - not even myself. All I will do is cut the bullcrap, discipline myself, and improve.

Oh come on, you can do it! Gogo, 加油!

*Takes a deep breath and exhales loudly*

You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't.

-Eleanor Roosevelt

dang it

Oh gosh, I have been feeling quite messed up these days. Coffee doesn't even keep me awake anymore. Anyone help?

Ridiculously tired

Yay! I feel so good right now because tomorrow is Saturday! Which means that I can sleeeeep! This week have been CRAAAAZY up in school these days. I have exams after exams and I went home everyday like five or six in the evening and have dinner with mum and finally back to books until midnight. Awesome.

Sorry that its been so long since I last updated a new post talk to you guys but it has been so00OOo00 busy that I am so00OOo0 tired and I just took out a little bit of time now to talk to myself.

Some updates for curious people...

I usually don't like to write about what I did everyday from time to time but whatever.

I went to school today and was shocked by teachers saying that I looked tired, lack of sleep or stress. Strange enough, I don't feel the latter despite all the assumptions. Maybe its my hair. Maybe I should get a haircut. I have shaved yesterday to get a "fresh" look. Or maybe I am really stressed, because I ate McSpicy the other day and my stomach hurts like crap the next day when I had my English paper.

I think I want to sleep early tonight and wake up at late afternoon tomorrow. Ha!

The Peak

One more week to Prelims and five weeks to O levels! This is the time of our life which I have been waiting for five years. Five years ago, I bade farewell to my primary school and welcomed secondary school. I walked into secondary school without knowing what O level was; neither do I know how important it is. What the hell am I thinking?

This is the time of the year which I have been waiting for and I am determined to strive. Are you?

Let's go! . ✌

Teacher's day

Its the end of August!

It has been a LONG time since I update this blog. There is so much things I wanted to say but I think I'll still keep it short until I have had the inspiration to post a really long one. Ha!

Today is teachers day. Its a day we show our gratitude to our teachers because when you take away teachers, we are nothing. We won't be full of wisdom like last Thursday, my teacher gave me a book and I was extremely happy about it. I read it heartily. Through that book, I have learnt to look at things in a positive way. I feel like a typical learned guy bespectacled carrying three dictionary-thick books around. :) The point is, everyone should give out positive energy and more positive energy will come! Its the law of attraction!

Never mind if you feel mediocre after reading my blog. You just need to know......

"All that we have is a result of what we have thought."

Think positive, be grateful and appreciate all the things you have and don't whine...

Food for thoughts, eh?

Urge

I don't know what to say but I have the urge to blog, suddenly. I think its because I have just finished my narratives on Dogs and the fire has not died out yet. Aha!

I also got a huge ulcer residing on my lips. Very excruciating.

I should have realised the consequences of having braces. When I had my braces, I can never seem to escape from the clutches of ulcers. Now I had my braces removed, I still have to suffer under the hands of ulcers. I HATE RETAINERS!!

Okay, now I look like an angry teenager.

This morning, mum handed fifty dollars to me. I took it and asked for more. No, not because fifty dollars is too little, but ITS AUGUST! And I needed the money for transportation. And then I realised time passes like a shot. Its August. I can still remember how in January, I reported eagerly to school, met my old friends, new teachers.. Now, in less than three month time, I'd be leaving the school. Which is great, but there are several things I wanted to do before I leave. *secretive

August is the month. National Day, examinations after examinations, O level, relax, Study again. I believe there is more things in life than studying but I have to study for another five years before leading a comfortable life! Ironic huh? Studying is suppose to be a comfortable job.

One thing I'm thrilled about is the class shirt we are commencing on. Plain, distinct and beautiful.. I hope to get one for FMT too?
*wry grin*

Ha ha ha.. !

I'm excited about tomorrow..

Blessed and Humbled.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the luckiest student in the world. I'm happy! No, not much because of how I've been accepted in DPA but more of how all the kind-hearted people like them that actually cared.

*

I stepped into the waiting room, motioned to be seated on the sofa adjacent to the entrance to what seemed like an modern day vicious gas chamber that are ready to kill all the hapless creatures in it with malice.

As I was called in for the interview, my legs wobbled. In the instant, I thought it'd be worse than the time I took my CL Oral exam where I spoke with a lisp. The conference room was beautifully decorated with the state-of-the-art equipment. There was a huge oval-shaped table, just like many conference room would have, positioned in the middle of the room. There were four interviewers seated right in front of us. The air was cool and I felt absolutely alone.

The other man who was with me together was confident. Lets name him Paul.

When I first met Paul, he was seated on the sofa comfortably, without any sign of nervousness in him. He was dressed neatly in his light blue uniform, looking confident and dandy. I said hello to him. After a few minutes, we were both called in for the interview.

We eased ourselves to the chairs and the interviewer asked a general question - tell me about yourself.

When it was my turn to start, I suddenly felt no fear, no sense of nervousness. It seemed that fear had grown legs and walked out of me, miraculously. My body stops producing adrenaline and I went on smoothly. At the instant, I'm really thankful for the sagely advice that my teachers and friends that was given to me. I'm happy not because of how well the interview went, but because of some realisations I've discovered.

For a moment, I have stopped worrying if I would "win" the interview, get accepted, and then contemptuously reject the offer. Because I know deep down, I have already "won". I doesn't really matter anymore.

I don't know what can I do to express my gratitude, but all I can I say is, Thank you. Thank you for giving me all the sagely advices to get through the day. You all know who you are.

It helped so much.

SUCESSFUL

I want the money, money and the cars
Cars and the clothes, the hoes, I suppose
I just wanna be, I just wanna be successful
I just wanna be, I just wanna be successful

I just wanna be, I just wanna be successful

"Success is a state of mind. If you want success, start thinking of yourself as a success."

- Dr. Joyce Brothers

DPA

The mail had arrived.

My hand reached over to the owl and the mail descended to my hand. I trusted my gut feeling to what it was inside. Yet, I opened it tentatively. It was with a little hint of the "YES!" feeling and with an abundance of hesitancy.

I was suppose to be all pleased and mirthful and at the same time, I felt like an asshole depriving opportunities for people who need it more than I do. It's like, selling fish.

I want it but I don't want it.

The interview is next Thursday. Should I go?

currently...

I'm very tired right now, physically. I want to sleep. No, I need to sleep.

I'm excited about going to watch Harry Potter tomorrow!

I'm eating Oreo biscuit with milk right now because the Hokkien Mee I had earlier was S size! How canny.

I'm going to brush my teeth with toothpaste and toothbrush after eating.

I'm signing off.